It’s been a while hasn’t it? It’s nice to be back. My brain is slowly dissolving, I’d like to gain it back. I let my mind wander to where my heart longs to be – away, somewhere, anywhere. Anywhere but here.
Time lapse –
‘Saturday/Sunday 14th/15th March 2015 – Airbound. Somewhere en route to Guangzhou
Just watched Gone Girl. What a creepy movie. Where do people get these ideas from?
It dawned on me that actually, this may be one of the first times I am arriving in an unknown country with absolutely no plan.
It was not I who booked the hotel. It was not I who arranged the airport pick up. What at first felt like a relief (finally someone else making the decisions) now feels a little bit like a nightmare.
THERE IS NO BACK UP PLAN.
There is no tour operator. There is no back up number. I don’t even have a phone number. Pure stupidity.
Anyway, I guess this is the real test.
‘Are you a real backpacker?’ John asked me. ‘Probably not’ I replied, ‘I’m sure a real backpacker wouldn’t call me one.’
There is one more leg to go. I didn’t even bring my Cambodia guide book. It didn’t make the cull. What a stupid idea that was.
Whilst the idea of safety in numbers is tempting, I am reminded of why I am the way I am.
‘Estas sola?‘ Si. Always. Because I will never let myself down.
Still, I want L to just be there. Mysteriously and miraculously. I don’t want to be sola for this. I want a partner in crime. Someone to bounce ideas off and be stupid with.
Come on L. Hurry up and get here already.
I am afraid. Yes, that is the truth. But I will be fine. It will all work out.’
And hey, guess what folks? It totally did.